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{ @_@ }

12:41 AM • Monday, August 28, 2006

it's been a week since I last blogged.. Heh PS2 is my life now -_- Gosh

I believe I can be very attractive
I believe I can be very cute
I believe I can be very smart
I believe I can be very successful
I believe I can be very happy
I believe I can be very cool
I believe I can be very rich
And last but not least, I believe I can find my soul mate =)

It's just a matter of when not how.
I believe I can wait.

{ B.L.A.S.T }

2:26 AM • Sunday, August 20, 2006

Just one word to describe today's stemaboat: BLAST! Gosh did we have so much fun today!! WOOHOO. Ok i'm gonna go play my PS2 now, update tmr hoho =D buhbyeee

{ My beloved! }

12:46 AM • Saturday, August 19, 2006

Oh my beloved!! I love you sooo much hoho I wanna play you every day and night!! HAHA
I promise to tske good care of you. =) So happy hehe. Hee can play games, watch DVDs with you =D

Heh gonna go Marina South to eat steamboat with Sarah and gang =D this time round, with old colleagues like Sengsiong, Zhizong, Aaron etc! Gonna be so much fun and laughter man ahhaa missed you guys.

Hmm... tuition is driving me nuts and its draining my energy =( tired tired... Uh HUH registering for driving lessons tmr! i mean later.. in the morning yay. Can drive around anywhere I like soon haha. ONLY me in the car and no one else. I'll blast the music too =D Don't ask me to drive you cuz I won't unless I feel like it =D hah.

Well still not prepared for Project Superstar yet. Can I do it alone again? I believe I can. Nothing is impossible to me, especially singing. Why would I let my good voice to go unheard? =D hoho a bit bhb. but I don't fukin care.

Hmm what if I fail... life still goes on I guess. Maybe not the right time for me to get in. Let fate decide ba xD

OMG sarah u better stop eating and stop tempting me to eat also ahha you made me broke my streak of two days with just apples for dinner only. Damn. OMG steamboat later in the evening also -_- i'll just have heavy breakfast and skip lunch then

okays gotta go have my beauty sleep to regain youth! buhbye=D

{ Tiring... }

10:26 PM • Thursday, August 17, 2006

Next week is hell week for my students cuz they are havin their exams. I'm so stressed up, its my first time teaching and I'm not sure if I'm able to hlep them improve. Oh wells. We'll see how it goes.

I'm joining Project Superstar. Again. So let's see now, I'll probably not get through the first round of auditions again. So why the fuk am I wasting my time -_- Gonna accompany Kelly, my cousin to auditions lol She's singing one of Kelly Poon's songs, think it's Ai, Wu Li. Lol. I thought I would choose Piano by Fan but in the end I think i'll settle for Ting Hai by A Mei =D I'll just go there and sing for fun.

Nothing to blog about. Or maybe there's no point in blogging anything. My blog is so dead now. I look old now. People say I look old now. LOL. Sarah said too much depression will make one old. Guess I need to regain my youth once again. o_O

From now on, I'll try my best to watch my diet, do some exercise, listen to more music to make myself happier and improve on vocals =D Hmmm.. guess need to improve on image as well. People don't believe I go clubbing -_- what the hell. But I don't really like clubbing la cuz of the smoke.

Oh yeah I'm gonna go down to driving centre this sat and register! Like finally haha. Can't imagine myself driving in future -_- too short to see the mirror haha.

I'm going to bed now. Sleep early to get back youth =D

PS: I'm just gonna choose what to bother about now =D The rest of it, I don't fucking care anymore. This will help me alot =D

{ Another week. }

8:57 PM • Sunday, August 13, 2006

Yet another week has gone by
So many times I've cried
I'm not who I used to be
What happened to me
How can I be myself again
To be freed from this pain

Should I just concentrate on losing weight and making myself feel better?
I can't stop eating.
I'm turning into a pig as each day passes.
I hate myself.
16 years of physical and mental torture.
I'm fat, ugly, short, stupid.
No one likes me.
Don't give me crap saying you guys love me
Yes I'm shallow for thinking all this
C'mon, let's be realistic.
Who would want a bf who's short, ugly, fat and stupid.
People look at me and get turned off.
Hope my blood vessel burst and I'll just die.
I'm more and more tired.
It's time to sleep

{ Xuefang's Bday }

10:39 PM • Thursday, August 10, 2006

Shall blog about Xuefang's Bday =) Had a blast man really really happy together haha
Went to Fish & Co. at Dhoby Ghaut to have dinner, I was late cuz I ended tuition late so in the end I was the only one eating while everyone stared at me lol. It was great seeing them again! Gosh first thing I did was laugh with Lynn. As usual. HAHA
Lynn was there, Celine, Xuefang, Daniel, Zhao Wei and Eng Khoon were there too. Haha I still remember your names ok. We all took pictures and HIAO together. Then came the bday cake and we sang bday song for her. She was made to stand on the chair and blow the candles on the table, which was quite far away, haha she couldn't la so Zhao Wei brought the cake closer. But, she blew the candles like she wanna fall off like that hahah. Sarah didn't meet us cuz she went home to slack (lazy bum!!) and she was smsing me all the way to ask us to hurry up -_- gosh.

When I first saw the cake she was holding, I thought I smelt durian and I told everyone it was durian cake. Then I was like 'Wah very smelly leh how', then they said Sarah can have half the cake ahaha. But Sarah said it was chocolate cake and I smelt Durian instead. My nose is screwed? LOL Sarah later said it was cuz the auntie put the choco cake with the durian cake together so that's why the durian's smell is quite strong.. weird =/

We reached Chinatown's Partyworld i think.. haha not bad not bad.. inside about the same as Kbox. The room is big too and I just jumped onto the sofa and treated it like my home =D We sang a lot a lot of songs... was there from 10pm to 3am.. haha and they were like 'omg Phil, I'm very impressed by your singing' lol sigh if only the judges say that, then i'll be like.. WOW anyways i'll be taking part in the Project Superstar 2 in Sept. With my cousin, Kelly! NOt Kelly Poon. ahaha i wish. oh wells hope i can at least get thru the first round. AND THEY FUKING LET ME IN. I'm so gonna dominate them ARGH blahhh.

Anyways, after KTV, we didn't go home cuz we were thinking it was only a few hours more then can take public transport, can save money haha we walked from chinatown to esplanade, which was quite near, to sit and stone. And yes we really did, we talked bout so many things ahaha shared cold jokes etc.

OMG DANIEL IS A FREAK!! he can sort of dislocate his arm himself and his right arm seemed to be dangling loooorrr omgomgomg All the girls screamed damn loud la. LOL it was funny seeing Daniel fixing his arm himself. But I concluded that it's really disgusting -_- Lynn was sayin when her friend hit the lamppost and dislocate his shoulders, her friend would hit the lamppost again to get his shoulder back in place, gosh how gross is that =/

Finally, it was time to go home already, before this I was kinda lyin on the floor already hahaha Sarah and Dan were talkin, the rest were by the sea dunno see what haha I am really tired leh =/

It was really an unforgettable day. i miss ktv now man.. and I'm growin to like this group a lot a lot!! And growing more closer too =) Hope it'll last? =/ Well let's go out again soon =D (which is like real soon hahahah) Lookin forward to it ;)

{ Ain't it Funny }

11:05 PM • Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Where are my old group of friends?
I actually spend more time with my new group of friends.
What does that mean?
I don't know why I keep harping on this subject.
But isn't it so damn obvious?

Getting very lost nowadays
Don't know the reason why.
I keep listening to What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts.
Why is it easier for people to say "It's your own choice to be happy. I'm happy beacuse I chose to be".
I mean c'mon, that statment has a tinge of being deillusional.
Lame.
One of the factors to be happy: everything that surrounds you must create that atmosphere for you to be happy.

I don't understand myself anymore.
Thought I did.

{ The Empty Within }

10:13 AM • Sunday, August 06, 2006

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*Echos* H.... . . . . E. . . . . L . . . . .P. . . . . .

{ Different by Night }

9:31 PM • Thursday, August 03, 2006

As night falls,
I could only sit and stare
Loneliness calls,
A smile on me is quite rare

When morning sets in,
I put aside my sorrows
Always pretending,
Simply can't imagine how

The stone in my heart isn't broken
The strongest acid won't work
Tell me how...

{ Great Gathering. }

10:26 AM • Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Met up with Sarah, Celine, Lynn and Daniel (new colleague at CBB) for supper yesterday. Was really great seeing them again. Still as funny and crappy as ever haha. Kept laughing non-stop. Ah. Just knew them for half a year only and we're so close. Rare friends. Daniel was funny. Yes as what Celine had said, he is crappy. Which is good ;) ahahaha. Might meet them again later at Bugis and also this Friday to watch movie. Hehe they're like integrated into my life already =/ Wish I could know them earlier.

Oh anyways forgot to include that the promotions at the airport has officially stopped. The whole Asia Pacific in fact. Mr Stephan's boss didn't want to extend his stay in Singapore, so he had to leave. Aww I'm gonna miss ya Mr Stephan, you have been a great superior to us (except there are times which we really don't like you either) Haha. Hope to work with you again real soon yeah ;)

Well gotta go now. Will come back later to update =)