Well guys, I'm gonna leave soon. =( Sigh gonna miss a number of people. Dunno what to blog also. People whom you want them to care bout you doesn't care, people who you least expect them to care bout you cares. Irony. But it's life, only thing to do is to look forward and concentrate on what you have and not on what you don't have.
BAH why do I feel so neutral when actually there's so many thousand emotions inside me that's churning non-stop. Fuk. Maybe I should go to bed and sleep, well that's what everyone would say. Argh as if I don't know -_- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Okay, I'll leave it at here. Just make sure you guys go listen to Rascal Flatts' WHat Hurts The Most and watch the vid too! =) See you guys soon (on Labour Day I hope) ciao!
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Last song of the day before I say farewell to friends and say hello to hell =\ 'What Hurts The Most' by Rascal Flatts. Gotaa love the vid and song. I cried when I heard this song =( Go watch the vid at http://youtube.com/watch?v=z5-4neazZBc&search=rascal%20flatts

Anyways, this will be my last post as well, unless I come on much later on tonight if I can't sleep, haha but I need sleep! Don't wanna fall asleep over there when the officers or whoever are talking haha.

Went clubbing last night haha with Gladys and Cass! It was quite screwed up at first cuz it was kinda impromptu. I was wearing berms and Cass forgot to bring her IC!! In the end, after much hassle, we went in MOS at 1am. LOL after that we wanted to put our stuff in the lockers or something, but we freakin waited for half an hour, the staff said that they were doing some housekeeping. MY ASS. Argh made us wait for nothing, they were just tryin to create space and that only took like 15mins cuz when we looked in, there were obviously space but they were just walkin around, pretending to shift some stuff here and there for fuk damnit. lol but anyways we went to the hmm..dont know what section you call that but they played hiphop/r&b songs there which were damn cool!! It was damnnn crowded, one thing cuz it's ladys' night haha. SO mannnyyy girls can!! LOL We left the place at around 3.30am and it felt like heaven. Was kinda sick sniffing in all the smoke. And I went there without having dinner, in the end had gastric cuz i drank some vodka lime as well on empty stomach lol =x oh wells it was F U N!

Okays that's all for now. Gonna meet Joy soon! Yeah hope I can enjoy the rest of my day in peace yeah. GOtta run now, till then, please do miss me muahahaha muacks!
Hey baby when we are together
Doing things that we love
Every time you're near i feel like im in heaven
Feeling high
I dont want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I dont wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

Hey baby when we are together
Doing things that we love
Every time you're near I feel like im in heaven
Feeling high
I dont want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I dont wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms

I dont want to run away
Wanna stay forever, eternity
No promises

I dont wanna run away
I dont wanna be alone
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
Now and forever my love
No promises

I dont wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just want to die in your arms,(here tonight)
I don't wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

Yeah, the anticipated album of Shayne Ward is out! And this is his second single 'No Promises' which is like better than the first single and it's sooooooo nice. *ahh seriously fallin in love with his voice* I've seen the MTV and the last part is quite sad =(

So, let's see: 2 more days for me. Should I be glad or sad? heh. I also dunno what to feel now. Especially all that I've been through. I feel quite numb now.

I feel childish too. I just deleted everything which I had already typed just few secs ago. Don't ask me why but I just did it. I can't believe I'm that sui2 bian4 to do that. The things that I typed are only meant for one person to see, but then again I thought it'd be damn childish and umm immature for me to do that. So I deleted it. And that doesn't mean I'm still not pissed. I'm just letting it go like that. You know like how people say: "Suan4 le3, its okay, nvm" kinda thing in a friendly tone. Like how many can you find who are like that? RARELY.

Anyways (reverts to old crazy self), I wanna say something again! I LOVE SHAYNE WARD!!!!! AHHHHH omg I so wanna get his album!! Hehe.

Oh and I went out with Celestina, Eunice and Harris yesterday for dinner =) I love you guys, I'll always remember the times we had in school, seriously, there's nothing more I can wish for =) We took neoprints too haha! And Harris said I look like a Jap boy!! HAHAHAHA *blushes* and I was lookin at the neoprints yesterday. And guess whattt, if I'm the Jap boy, then there are 4 races in the picture! hahaha Eunice is chinese, Celestina is Indian, Harris is Malay and I'm Jap!!! AHAHAHA and we are called C.H.E.X! well guess you guys can figure that out hahah and thanks celestina for ur jokes! Damn funny can!! I shall not say it out now in case you get into trouble ahaha.

Well have nothing much to update for now. Have work later tonight, so I'll drop by online to see see and write my report at the same time =D till then i'm goneeee *poof*
Fragile mind and soul
Let me be whole
But I can't let go
Tell me why so
Can't break away
What can I say
It's just another day
The price I gotta pay
Broke my heart
With so many darts
Falling apart
No one to pick me up
However hard i try
People just don't buy
That makes me cry
Until I'm dry
So now I can only sit and wait
For myself to get a date
Leave it all to fate
Please don't let it be too late


Cuz I'm gonna be dead.
Had a very nice evening with my colleagues, we went to Genki Sushi (my third time for this week =/) to eat again! LOL and we sort of got acquainted with the Auntie there (Lynn prefers to call her Xiao Jie (Miss)), but she's not that young ma so we cannot lie!! ahahaa We spent 70+ bucks and we all thought it was quite cheap, considering there were 5 of us and we ate almost 30 plus plates ahaha thanks to the Auntie's 10% discount! We were laughing bout so mannny things damn I am really gonna miss them =( sigh. Time flies. Still remember the first time in Jan. And now its April. DAMN. Lol but i'm really glad i met these friends cuz they are always the one who cheer me up at the end of the day since i always work evening shifts haha. But anyways after the sushi, we went to have ice cream!! YUMMY. And that isn't all. I still bought a pizza and chocolates o_0 imagine how much weight i'm gonna put on.

Ok i copied this from my colleague about her weird encounter (DAMN FUNNY TO ME).

woman: hey, you...can gimme ur number

me:huh?

woman:i'm doing insurance. want to sell u.

(ya lazy to type who is talking, u can figure out la)

erm....i'm still a student..dun intend to get insured yet.

then your parents?

my parents buy liao

then your sister?

my sister also buy liao

then brother? got brother?

(by this time , i felt that she was doing population check)

my brother in ns la.

(jus as i thought she has nothing to say...she asked something i nv thought she wun)

then ur neighbour?

well, not familar with them...(y wun my neighbour tell me that?)

(jus as she realise i am not her key to new clients,she tried to asked abt my work)

u part-time ar

ya part-time

what u doing here?

promoting the wireless service provided on board

what is it about?

(so i begin to explain to her. and our explanation was told to be super short cos ppl rushing to board...but this woman is simply to free)

huh, like that only ar

ya

so how i use it?

u need to have a wireless device on ur laptop or palm top.

but i dun have laptop

erm u need to have one

but i dun have mean i cannot use

( at this pt, i wondered y i bother talking to her?the ans is of cos, u dumb woman)

ya

ok lo...(then before she left she gave me this snubbing face)

remarks: prudential jus lost a potential client, nv will i buy insurance fr them after i grad...told ch this story, her reply was best...she told me i should asked her whether she knows her neighbours' bra size haha...but to let ch know, my neighbours are three guys...so i will nv know the ans.

OMGOMGOMG I LOVE LYNN'S REPLY. Ask bout bra size -_- damn stupid la that woman =
But anyways I wanna use this chance to thank the 'old birds' (colleagues) of Connexion By Boeing.

Lynn: Heyys girl! We sure have lots in common and one of them is laughing loudly!! Hahaa we are damn noisy today la =x hehe Still remember ur the first partner i worked with and u were late!! =x bad example ahahahah well will really miss talkin to you and sharing some probs and stuff. In future, wheni have probs or what dont turn me away k!! hehe =D u are a great person to hang out with. =) love working with you love ya!!

Sarah: HEy ah liannn ahhaa just kidding hope i didnt scare you too badly just now. Was feeling playful hoho =P well i wont ever get bored working with you cuz u are sooo lame sometimes =S Be more positive everytime yeah? Love ya!! keep making ppl smile =D be less talktative hahaah just kiddin =x

Celine: Bonjour!! Haha though i havent really worked with you for long but ur a great person to work with!! And i really really love ur positive attitude and also umm ur straightforwardness ahahaha oh and thanks for intro-ing me the spicy salmon, damnnn its sooooo nice!! Next time have salmon buffet must ask me along too!! Love ya!!

Benjy: Hello dude =) I've worked with you for quite some time ahah ur quite funny too sometimes =x but the most memorable one is the Frankfurt flight where you asked me to learn french ahah and use it on the spot. Vous Avez Un Ordinateur portatif Sans Fil =) hahaa i can memorise already hehe thanks for the guidance!

Sengsiong: OOps you went in already so dont know if you have the chance to read this ahaha. But hey hope ur fine inside. The slackin times with you sure makes work easier ahhaha ;) really hope to see you soon yeah? maybe i'll see ya inside hahaa

Xuefang: hey girl! Ur quite quiet leh ahaha but ur funny too =D hahah will miss the times when we work together too! and thanks for the info on Universities and stuff. =) appreciate it! Love ya!!

Andrea: Ahh andrea, =) nice working with you. In the past we'd always exchange shifts but we didnt really have the chance to work together. Only got to work more towards the end. But hey, i should be grateful for that cuz ur another cool and fun colleague =D Love ya!!

Zhizong: hey zhizong the blur sotong!! U always never fail to surprise me and of cuz lie to me -_- hahahah ur so good at bluffing ppl can!! hahah well hope ur doin fine in MJC my junior!! haha and, pls go for that girl if you want her =P cheers man!! Any probs can come to me =D Will be more than willing to help!

Aaron: Yo yo dude! Man ur one enthusiastic person! love ur personality and dont stop humouring others! thats ur forte! hahaha ur very cool with work with =) well i think maybe we'll have a chance to work again in future? cuz i always exchange the shift away which i was working with you but i really dont know ur workin with me yeah =x dont mean to!! =x Cheers dude!

Shuzhen: Ah last but not least. hahha damn the first day u worked with me you thought i was a girl because of my name! omgggg ahahaha but its ok i forgive you =P ur one great person. always looking at SIA girls and commenting on them hahahaah but ur pretty also la =D hehe well hope you'll do great in ur other job yeah? and since we live so close to each other, do keep in touch yeah? Love ya!!

To all: heys all, thanks for the moments together. I really really love you guys. I'm gonna miss you guys so much. PLS do keep in touch yeah? Forget me not!!

haha gosh so cliche lolol *sobs* i can't bear to leave them. oh wells haha still have work later, better go sleep and not be late or else sarah will nag at me -_- haha nights =)
In the still of the night
Is where thoughts run loose
Emotions become uncontrolled
As minutes cruise by
I'm sitting down here
Listening to my mp3s
Thinking if there's a chance
For me to find that special someone
Or should I just give up hope
And hop on the fast-paced life

Now, I understand why infatuation occurs! Anyways, that above ain't lyrics =) When you're feeling insecure, and this other person's whole package isn't that bad, you'd wish that the person would/can provide you with the security you wished for. And so you start to develop hope/feelings for that person and there starts the infatuation. I thought the explanation is great =/ I mean it so totally describes what I'm feeling. Sooo thank you my Godsista Joy for that =D At least now I know why I feel this way. Insecurity. Emptiness. Loneliness.

Ben Moody feat. Anastacia - Everything Burns
[ANASTACIA]
She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone a stray
But she will sing

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
'Till everything burns

[ANASTACIA]
Ooh, oh

[BEN MOODY]
Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

[CHORUS: Ben Moody / Anastacia]
'Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns

[BEN MOODY / ANASTACIA]
'Till everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams..
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, ooh..
(While everyone screams)
Burning down lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away...

Love this song. It rawks. But I don't. Blegh. Going to bed now. Nights.
It's kinda funny how things change real quick in just ONE day. It may change for the better. It may change for the worse. For me, it's the latter. Though I usually get these kinda things thrown at me, this 'IT' simply broke my limit and down i went emotionally. *shrugs* well guess that's life.
Sing to me the song of despair
The song which everyone shudders at the thought of it
But who can truly sing it well
Only a few understand what it means

Why is it so unfair to some people
People who deserve to live die
And vice versa
It is such an irony

Sing to me the song of 'all hopes lost'
The song which everyone shudders at the thought of it
But who can truly sing it well
When not many have tasted the true meaning of it

Why is it so unfair to some people
That they can't get their love back
When they've given everything
Including their lives.

------------------------------------------------------------

I hate to be in the same phase again and again
Or is it just me
But I really can't help it
Has the last relationship had such an impact on me
That it clouded my mind
I don't mean to turn people off
Just that I need a little attention sometimes
Give me strength to think coherently again
But till then, I'm completely. . . smashed
Heavy word to use, but it is the true fact
As all the problems which I tucked inside my heart
are not really solved
It'll soon surface up again
Not that I never try
But I'm always smiling and laughing
If that's not effort, then what is
I can just be depressed and die
But I'm scared of dying
The sight of blood
The view from the top of a 20-storey building
I'm a coward
I run away from problems
I am just so tired
I wanna stop searching
But I just can't
As I'm not searched at all
Tears
Not flowing from eyes
But flowing from within the heart
That is the most painful thing
But only a few know how it is like
I just can't stop thinking
I need attention
Lots of them
But who would be that dumb
To gimme all that
I can say the only dumb person
Would be me
I'd give everything up
for a person
But it is just one sided
most of the times
I've no wish to be in any kinda relationships
anymore
But as I'm typing
Deep inside me
There's a part of me which still wanna try
And it usually gets the better of me
And I allow myself to sink in infatuations
Which I later suffer
When it is only for a few days
New person with considerable character
Few days together will make me sink in
Like what the hell am I thinking
I'm just too affectionate and passionate
I don't deserve to be loved
I'm just playing this foolish game myself
Which has no ending
------------------------------------------------------------

Whoever manages to break through my barrier
Whoever manages to bring light to my dark room
You know you'll be much appreciated and loved
But I just hope it won't be too strong
that pushes that 'whoever' away
I'll always be waiting for that day
Waiting for the One.
well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
if you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
i may be skinny at times but I'm fat full 'a rhymes
pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it a
isn't it delicious crazy way that i'm kissin'
cause baby listen to this don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
but don't ever quit cuz soon i'm gonna let you in but see

i don't care what you might think about me
you can vibe without me if you want
i could be the one to take you home
baby I could rock the night alone
if we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
i could be the one to turn you out
we could be the talk across the town
don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away

i'm the geek in the pink pink pink
i'm the geek in the pink yeah

well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
but cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
at least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and a
she was staring through the doorframe
eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
cause i ain't comin' home, i don't need that attention, see

i don't care what you might think about me
you'll get by without me if you want
i could be the one to take you home
baby we could rock the night alone
if we never get down it shouldn't be the let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
i could be the one to turn you out
you could be the talk across the town
don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away

i am more than you're thinking
hey look at me go
from hero to zero
oh take it from a geek like me
i can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

so what I've got a short attention span
a coke in my hand
because i'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
Mm hip hop and flip flops it don't stop with the light rock
a shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
the hype is nothing more than hoo-hah so i'm
developing a language and i'm calling it my own
so take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what i mean
that on the other side the grass is greener

i don't care what you might think about me
you'll get by without me if you want
i could be the one to take you home
baby we could rock the night alone
if we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
but sugar don't forget what you already know
i could be the one to turn you out
we could be the talk across the town
don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
you might regret what you let slip away

i'm the geek in the pink pink pink
i'm the geek in the pink yeah
i'm the geek in the pink
all y'all it's the new color for fall

OMG this is such a cool song!!! I'm so gonna learn how to sing this although it's kinda little difficult for me, not really my genre. BUT IT RAWKS. hahaha and the MTV is sooo cute. Erh I've nothing to blog about. HAHA but I'm considerably happy. Another phase for me oh no. =/ (PS: there are some mistakes in the lyrics which I'm lazy to correct it now ahaha)
You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window,
always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees

These foolish games are tearing me apart
You thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you,
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things=20
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart
You thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took off your coat and stood in the rain
you were always like that

And that was Foolish Games by Jewel. The old her was superb. And the new her now sucks. Intuition wasn't really that great. But anyways, this song..sigh..don't know why but everytime I hear this song, there is just this weird feeling that's inside me. I LOVE THIS SONG. I feel sad whenever I hear this song. It's just that the lyrics, the music and her voice paint out the whole scenario perfectly for me to see.

Have you guys ever felt that you are the only ones going around caring about other people, but don't get the same treatment back? It's not that you guys want your 'care' to be reciprocated, but sometimes if one is a good friend, no matter what happens, a good friend will always take note of his surroundings to see who is feeling down and stuff. For example: the most visible thing is from the MSN nick. For the past week, I've changed my nick more than thrice. But only my dear God-sista Joy (who hadn't been online for quite some time) managed to see what's happening. And mind you, she msged me straightaway after she's online. I asked her how she knows, she said 'it's too easy'. At that point, I was feeling even worse and glad at the same time. She added one more thing: 'Maybe they don't try hard enough'. Yeah I definitely agree to that. Sigh. But nvm it's okay. I'm used to it.

Was talking to Jeff yesterday. He was the SECOND to ask me. (Have to give credit to Hancheng, though he didn't directly asked me why -_- he only told me i should have gone on shopping spree to ease myself). Wow two person in the span of more than one week. That's how many friends I have you know. Jeff said: 'People have their own problems and they are already frustrated enough, so they don't have energy to care about other stuff'. Oh no Jeff I absolutely disagree with you (but that was a good comment =x) My Godsista and me, we too have our own problems and frustrations maybe more than some people whom we know, but we never don't take note of our surroundings. Like some people might think: 'Wah he thinks he's so noble ah blog until like that'. Well, if you wanna know the true fact, I don't really give a damn about what you guys think. You guys can say that I'm a hypocrite or whatever but i'm not. But =) I'm meeting Jeff for coffee soon yay =) Thanks Jeff.

But anyways I shall not think about all this anymore and just revert to my old self. Life's like this anyway, I'm very used to it. So let it be then. BUT don't assume that just cuz I don't show it out or I always laugh everyday, doesn't mean you guys can take me for granted. If not, it'll really be a pity. I mean it.

Gonna play games!! Omg I can't stop eating!! And Harris said I'm fatter already cuz he can see my tummy AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. But really can't stop eating mah -_- lol alright I've work tonight, maybe will drop by at night to blog again or something =D

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