{ I Don't Wanna Be }
I don't need to be anything other 10:56 AM • Friday, March 31, 2006
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have a peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who's noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have a peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have a peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
Sorry guys but I can't help it but to post my blog music's lyrics on here. It is my FAVOURITE song now and it's sooo infectious!!! Its I Don't Wanna Be By Gavin Degraw, taken out from the soundtrack of One Tree Hill. I love this song because the message in it is great. To Szeteng: I'll send you this song when you're online =D
We don't have to prove ourselves to anyone, nor do we have to feel badly about where we came from. It's just like this world's demand of us to be something different then who we are!!! Just stay real to yourself!
{ Give It To You - Jordan Knight }
(Verse 1) 10:46 PM • Wednesday, March 29, 2006
You say its been too long
since you had some
You say I turn you on
like a fire that's burning inside
You think that I'm the one
You see in your dreams
I know what you mean yeah
It's creepin around in your head
me holding you down in my bed
You don't have to say a word
I'm convinced you want this
Chorus:
Baby you know I can give it to you
I can't deny you do it right
Just let me know and I'll give it to you
Just show me where, I'll take you there
Baby you know that I'll give it to you
Your body needs a man like me
Anything goes when I give it to you
You know without a doubt, I'll turn you out
I'll give it to you
The feeling is fine, giving you everything of mine
(Verse 2)
I'm the place to be
and soon, you'll see
I don't care who leads
As long as we move horizontally
Anyone can make you sweat
But I, can keep you wet
It's creepin around in my head
Me holding you down in my bed
I can't wait to give you some
I'm convinced you need it
Chorus
It's creepin around in my head
Me holding you down in my bed
You don't have to say a word
Just relax, I'll do the work
I can't wait to give you some
I'm convinced you need one
Chorus
I want to satisfy your every wish and mine baby
I know just what you need,(you need)to get you off
No one could ever do you like I do you right baby
There's nothing we can't do.....
The feeling is fine giving you everything of mine
Song of the day is Jordan Knight's Give It To You. This is one hella sexy video. I love this song a lot, the beats, the lyrics, oooo makes me shiver hhaaha oh and I've learnt to sing this song already, very easy hoho =D
It's been a long time since I updated but there's nothing to anyways since I was working everyday for the past week, was kinda tired to update anything haha. Now I'm finally free for two days before I work again on Friday night. SIAN. I just sorta finished my Uni stuff and I'm gonna use speed post to send all my documents at once. I'm a very last min person hahaha =D
I watched American Idol just now and it sorta stirred up that feeling in me again. I wanna sing! I wanna perform! Why am I not in Singapore Idol?! Sigh. I was having a good time singing to myself in my room, and I felt that I do sing okay enough to make it through second round of Singapore Idol. Like what the fuk I didn't -_- Argh!
Just what are they looking for? The extremes? Then what about those who's better than average and has room for improvements? Why are they deprived of their chances to make it big? WHY WHY WHY I DON'T UNDERSTAND??!! ARGHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHRHGHHHSHAHAH
*ahem* okay, well let's see, its about 3 more weeks to my enlistment day, I wanna go cut and dye my hair first!! hoho lalala, hope i'll enjoy myself like how Edwinnie is enjoying himself in NS??! haha gosh that's gross.
Anyways, I don't think I'm gonna type much tonight. I'll just leave it here for now. See ya all around night!
{ test again~ }
Was looking at marie's blog for the personality test again and I decided to do it before I go ot to bugis to meet Meiyan! Haha so, the result is: ESFJ where E=Extroverted(78%), S=Sensing(1%), F=Feeling(88%), J=Judging(1%). Hmm...I wonder why they bother to put the 1%'s lol. But yeah the feeling part is defintely correct! Oh you guys can take the test at www.humanmetrics.com! 1:18 PM • Thursday, March 16, 2006
Here's the analysis for my type (for those who bother to read hahahaa):
http://typelogic.com/esfj.html
Guardians of birthdays, holidays and celebrations, ESFJs are generous entertainers. They enjoy and joyfully observe traditions and are liberal in giving, especially where custom prescribes.
All else being equal, ESFJs enjoy being in charge. They see problems clearly and delegate easily, work hard and play with zest. ESFJs, as do most SJs, bear strong allegiance to rights of seniority. They willingly provide service (which embodies life's meaning) and expect the same from others.
ESFJs are easily wounded. And when wounded, their emotions will not be contained. They by nature "wear their hearts on their sleeves," often exuding warmth and bonhomie, but not infrequently boiling over with the vexation of their souls. Some ESFJs channel these vibrant emotions into moving dramatic performances on stage and screen.
Strong, contradictory forces consume the ESFJ. Their sense of right and wrong wrestles with an overwhelming rescuing, 'mothering' drive. This sometimes results in swift, immediate action taken upon a transgressor, followed by stern reprimand; ultimately, however, the prodigal is wrested from the gallows of their folly, just as the noose tightens and all hope is lost, by the very executioner!
An ESFJ at odds with self is a remarkable sight. When a decision must be made, especially one involving the risk of conflict (abhorrent to ESFJs), there ensues an in-house wrestling match between the aforementioned black-and-white Values and the Nemesis of Discord. The contender pits self against self, once firmly deciding with the Right, then switching to Prudence to forestall hostilities, countered by unswerving Values, ad exhaustium, winner take all.
As caretakers, ESFJs sense danger all around--germs within, the elements without, unscrupulous malefactors, insidious character flaws. The world is a dangerous place, not to be trusted. Not that the ESFJ is paranoid; 'hyper-vigilant' would be more precise. And thus they serve excellently as protectors, outstanding in fields such as medical care and elementary education.
Functional Analysis:
Extraverted Feeling
ESFJs live in their Extraverted Feeling functioning. Feeling, a rational (i.e., deciding) function, expresses opinions easily in the E world of objects and people. ESFJs have the ability to express warmth, rage, and a range of other emotions. Actions are encouraged or rebuked based on how they affect other people, especially people near and dear to the ESFJ. This type's vocal decisiveness predisposes many of its number to facility with administration and supervision.
Introverted Sensing
The secondary Sensing function aids and abets the dominant Fe in that sensate data is collected and at once compared with the inner forms or standards. Data on which decisions are made are thus focused and given a contrast which tends to be stronger and clearer than the original stimuli. The strengthening effect of Si on Fe may be responsible for this type's reputation for wearing their "hearts on their sleeves." At any rate, ESFJs reflect the "black and white" view of reality which is common to the SJ types.
Extraverted iNtuition
Intuition is tertiary--as the ESFJ matures, and as situations arise which call for suspension of criticism, Ne is allowed to play. Under the leadership of the Fe function, iNtuition allows for a loosening of the more rigid Si rights and wrongs; teasing and slapstick humor emerge. ESFJs are also capable of discerning patterns and philosophies, but such perceiving is subject to the weakness of the tertiary position, and the results often lack the variety and complexity of connections that more complex systems require.
Introverted Thinking
The inferior Ti function may rarely be expressed. In fact, ESFJs may take affront at the aloof, detached nature of dominant Ti types, or conversely, be drawn to them. Some ESFJs construct rationale which have the appearance of (Jungian) Thinking logic, but under scrutiny are in fact command performances of "Thinking in the service of Feeling," (i.e., Thinking-like conclusions which do not obey the tenets of impersonal logic; they rather construct scenarios from only those "hard, cold facts" which support the conclusion reached by the dominant Extraverted Feeling function. To wit:
You don't sew with a fork, so I see no reason to eat
with knitting needles.
-- Miss Piggy, on eating Chinese Food
Famous ESFJs:
U.S. Presidents:
William McKinley
William J. Clinton
Jack Benny
Desi Arnaz ("Ricky Ricardo")
Don Knotts ("Barney Fife")
John Connally (former Governor of Texas)
Terry Bradshaw, NFL quarterback
Sally Struthers (All in the Family)
Mary Tyler Moore
Dixie Carter (Designing Women)
Steve Spurrier, Heismann trophy winner, Univ. of Fla. football coach
Sally Field
Danny Glover, actor (Lethal Weapon movies, Predator 2 Margaret Butt
Nancy Kerrigan (U.S. olympic figureskater)
Elvis Stojko (Canadian olympic figureskater)
Fictional ESFJs:
Babbitt (Sinclair Lewis)
Hoss Cartwright (Bonanza)
Leonard "Bones" McCoy (Star Trek)
Monica (Friends)
Haleh (ER)
Donald Duck
Rabbit, Winnie the Pooh
http://keirsey.com/personality/sjef.html
Provider Guardians take it upon themselves to arrange for the health and welfare of those in their care, but they are also the most sociable of all the Guardians, and thus are the great nurturers of established institutions such as schools, businesses, churches, social clubs, and civic groups. Wherever they go, Providers take up the role of social contributor, happily giving their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, that traditions are supported and developed, and that social functions are a success.
Providers are very likely more than ten percent of the population, and this is very fortunate for the rest of us, because friendly social service is a key to their nature. Highly cooperative themselves, Providers are skilled in maintaining teamwork among their helpers, and are also tireless in their attention to the details of furnishing goods and services. They make excellent chairpersons in charge of social events. They are without peer as masters of ceremonies, able to approach others with ease and confidence, and seemingly aware of what everyone’s been doing. And they are outstanding hosts or hostesses, able to remember people’s names, usually after one introduction, and always concerned about the needs of their guests, wanting to insure that all are involved and provided for.
Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them rather self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Because of this Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and will work most effectively when given ample appreciation both for themselves personally and for the service they give to others. This is not to say that Providers are afraid to express their own emotional reactions. They are quick to like and dislike—and don’t mind saying so—tending to put on a pedestal whatever or whoever they admire, and to come down hard on those people and issues they don’t care for.
In their choice of careers, Providers may lean toward sales and service occupations. They have such pleasant, outgoing personalities that they are far and away the best sales reps, not only regularly winning sales contests, but earning seniority in any sales group within an organization. Observing Providers at work in a sales transaction reveals clearly how this type personalizes the sale. They are visibly—and honestly—concerned with their customer’s welfare, and thus the customer is not simply buying the product, but is buying personally from the Provider. This same characteristic causes them to be good in many people-to-people jobs, as teachers, clergy, coaches, social workers, office receptionists, and so on. Providers seldom become a source of irritation in the workplace; on the contrary, they are unflagging in their devotion to their company, and show such personal loyalty to their immediate superiors that they make invaluable personal secretaries.
President and Chief Supreme Court Justice Willam Howard Taft is an example of a Provider Guardian.
President George Washington as an iconic example of the Guardian temperament was a Provider.
Hmm I really don't know if this test is true, there are some parts which I don't think is true, but oh wells this kinda tests don't really show a true person. You only get to know a true person if you really know someone for a long time, that's what i learnt =)
Okkkkkkays gotta go bathe now, I'm like feelin so tired haha =S
{ Try - Nelly Furtado }
All I know 11:51 PM • Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn x2 the more I cry x2
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be x2
And that's wonderful, and that's life
that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
This is like prolly the best Nelly Furtado song I've ever heard. Sincere, touching, warm voice and superb song lyrics. Upon listening to this song, I sorta have tears welling up in my eyes already. Sad song.
Today was just a bad day can. I keep saying wrong things; I am very absent-minded; I am always walking in wrong direction; I almost trip over just this tiny little hump on way back to city link mall. Gosh don't know what's wrong with me today, Nicholas, Szeteng and Shiyun can vouch for it cuz they were present. PS: Damn you bro haha =P short ppl has certain advantages, you'll see!!
I watched Final Destination 3 with Szeteng, to be honest, the movie was quite scary =x Nicholas said it wasn't so I kinda trusted him and I was totally unprepared. The way they died is way too gross and yuck and ew and whatever @_@ We wanted to watch date movie after FD3 but I had not much money left haha so in the end we got ourselves ice-cream! Ok here's the nicest part, next time when you guys are with me in Marina Square, make sure you guys remind me to bring you all to try this Banana Chocolate ice-cream cuz it's damn fukin nice can =D ahahahah didn't waste money on arcade or bowling phew~
Anyways I have to go to bed early cuz I'm going to zoo tmr!! Uh huh uh huh ZOO!! Like after dunno how many donkey years, hahaha!!
Note: Now i think I'm a happy guy! Though I'm single, I'm still glad I have good friends like Teng meinu and Hafiz my good bud! Not to forget the laughters and joys and troubles I share with like *ahem* Joy sista ahah and Nic bro aka sHeer romance hot hunk hahahaha. Hmm don't leave my life plssssssssssssssss ahahhahaa I'm siao already, think I better go sleep, looking forward to F.U, F.U, F.U, F.U.N!!!
{ Tests and more tests! }
1:36 AM • Friday, March 10, 2006
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating |
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| Your Japanese Name Is... |
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| You Are Socks! |
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OMG I'm a pair of socks?!?!?!? Damnit lol.
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
 You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
| Your French Name is: |
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| You Are 17 Years Old |
 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Haha yeah! I'm 17 and not 19! =D
| Your Band Name is: |
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Band Name Generator
The name sounds cool =S
| Your Musical Tastes Match: Jennifer Garner |
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| Your Mood Ring is Magenta |
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Mood Ring Generator
WTH I'm weird?!?
| What Your Face Says |
 Overall, your true self is passionate and physical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic. |
| Your Daddy Is Ozzy Osbourne |
 Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy |
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHA OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG MY DADDDDDDDDDDDDDD
| On Average, You Would Sell Out For |
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At What Price Would You Sell Out?
so cheap?! I'm priceless ok...hohoho
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain. |
not bad not bad...
| You Were An Owl |
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| You Should Learn Spanish |
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| Your Luck Quotient: 70% |
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| You Are Likely a First Born |
 In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream. |
wahhh so accurate! I'm indeed the first child.
| Your Irish Name Is... |
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| You Are an Indie Rocker! |
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| Your Birthdate: July 27 |
 Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge Your power color: Cobalt blue Your power symbol: Dove Your power month: September |
So true? =S
| Your Eyes Should Be Brown |
 What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart |
What Color Should Your Eyes Be?
| Your French Name is: |
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| You Are Rain |
 You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing |
Ok thats all for now...gonna go sleep haha god I didn't know I did so much. Can't help it cuz it's interesting! There's so many more to do! I'll do them all hohohoh good night!!
{ Can't think of one }
Mind in a whirl now 1:45 AM • Thursday, March 09, 2006
Don't know what else to think
All that I'm typing now
Are just nothing but crap
Cos I'm just typing
Aimlessly
Just to fill up this page
Why is it so
I don't know
Don't ask me why either
{ I Can Never Take The Place of Your Man - Jordan Knight }
Verse 1 9:36 PM • Monday, March 06, 2006
Only last June when her old man ran away
She couldn't stop crying cause she knew he was gone to stay
10:35 on a lonely Friday night
She was standing by the fire and ooh she was looking alright
B Section
I asked her if she wanted to dance
And she said that
All she wanted was a good man
And wanted to know
If I thought I was qualified
Chorus
And I said baby don't waste your time
I know what's on your mind
I may be qualified for a one night stand
But I could never take the place of your man
Verse 2
It hurt me so bad when she told me with tears in her eyes
He was all she ever had and now she wanted to die
He left her with a baby and another one on the way
She couldn't stop crying cause she knew he was gone to stay
B-Section
She asked me if we could be friends
And I said oh honey baby that's a dead end
You know and I know
That we wouldn't be satisfied
Chorus
And I said baby don't waste your time
I know what's on your mind baby
Wouldn't be satisfied with a one night stand
And I could never take the place of your man
(Chorus out)
Helllooo how's everyone so far? Hope everyone is doing great! I'm doin very fine now =) oh anyway song of the day is by Jordan Knight. 'I Can Never Take The Place of Your Man' hmm...it is definitely true when that girl still loves her ex deeply.
Oh yeahhh i got to listen to Pink's new single Stupid Girls. I saw MTV on TRL haha it is damn funny!! You guys should check it out soon, the song rawks! hehe if not can ask me send you =D
Well just now was watching the last 15mins of Campus Superstar, only got to listen to the last 2 male singers. Not bad, better than me =S sigh I can just resign myself to fate: i'm only a bedroom singer. LOL I do sing in toilet but my bedroom is more comfy haha.
So, I'm going in NS soon. Wow how fast, and at the same time how slow. April 21st. I feel so sick doing nothing at home when I'm not working. Seriously, I feel like studying now! Not to say I'm sick or what, but you guys know how bored you can be when you are really doing nothing but just sitting there and stare into blank space; if not you might be on bed having a nap but most prolly sleepin 6 hours in additonal to your usual 7 hours.
Oh yeah I still owe my Mum a bday prezzie oops. Sorry Mama havent take my salary yet, will have quite a lot soon hoho. But not gonna touch too much of it, must save! Meeting Pamela and Hancheng tmr for badminton lol kinda weird cuz its been a loooooong time since we met up to play badminton but well why not right? Hancheng I'm not gonna let you beat me! Well maybe you can beat me when warming up then =P
Minjoo jie happy belated bday! Called you but you didn't pick up your phone. =(
Alright think i gotta go now, better have enough rest for a full day tmr. =S night tata
{ Featuring two songs today! }
Garth Brooks - Lost In You 11:24 PM • Thursday, March 02, 2006
There's no more waiting
Holding out for love
You are my Godsend
That I have been forever dreaming of
My angel from above
Heaven knows I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around Baby
I have found I get lost in you
What is this feeling
I've never known before
That I should touch you
Swearing to surrender ever more
That's what I came here for
Heaven knows I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around
Baby I have found I get lost in a wonderful daze
Lost in your wonderful ways
Heaven knows
When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost
Heaven knows I'm head over heels and it shows
I've played every field I suppose
But there's something about you
When you're around
Baby I have found
I get lost in you
Kenny Rogers - Lady
Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you
You have made me what I am and I am yours
My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you
Let me hold you in my arms forever more
You have gone and made me such a fool
I'm so lost in your love
And oh, we belong together
Won't you believe in my song?
Lady, for so many years I thought I'd never find you
You have come into my life and made me whole
Forever let me wake to see you each and every morning
Let me hear you whisper softly in my ear
In my eyes I see no one else but you
There's no other love like our love
And yes, oh yes, I'll always want you near me
I've waited for you for so long
Lady, your love's the only love I need
And beside me is where I want you to be
'cause, my love, there's somethin' I want you to know
You're the love of my life, you're my lady
Yeahhhh these two songs rawksssss, both have sincerely touched me to the deepest. I'm learning the one by Garth Brooks now, more challenging! haha anyways, i'm not really gonna talk anything much about the A levels results cuz you guys prolly already know how i did and yes some of you might agree I've improved, or rather peaked at A levels (thankfully). But well some of you might think it isn't good enough to enter a good course in Uni.
But yeah, I've already chosen my alternative pathway besides being a singer (which in my lifetime I don't think I will achieve it): to major in psychology. I'm not sure if this is the best and correct pathway cuz a pair of eyes isn't enough to see the whole picture sometimes. Just hope everything is smooth sailing for me once I get the course I want. And also not to slack too much like I did in JC. Lol this is what I say now, but in NUS or NTU later when I get admitted, it's tough to predict @_@
Haha but anyways I'm not workin with Shiyun anymore in Orchard. Or rather I've quitted that job already. So Shiyun is now back to her little shop in Milennia Walk, do drop by to visit her! =D you owe me one Shiyun =P
For me, the starting of NS life is just a few steps ahead. For others, the BMT will be over in like a week's time? Damn. Can't wait to get past NS life and go to Uni but we'll see how.
If I had that money right before me to use, I will definitely go overseas to do my studies. I've sort of discussed with my parents that within this 2 years, I'll save an amount of money for overseas and whatever the balance is, my parents will top it up. But of course my dad must work a little harder to earn more in these 2 years to get maybe..more than 100k? That is highly possible, but he was saying just get into a local Uni first, I was like erm ok.
Well so now from what I've gathered about the choices and everything, my final plan is: to reg for NUS and NTU's arts fac first to ensure a place and then during my 2 years of NS, if i explored that there's a faster route for me to get myMasters overseas, I'll go overseas. And from the beginning of now till end of NS, I'll start to save up already. Even if I decided not to go overseas, I could do something else with the sum of money I saved.
The plan sounds logical to me, don't know how it sounds to you guys. Maybe you guys can tag or something to give your valuable suggestions? =D thanks
Well gotta run now, gonna play some maple or something else, if not gonna read my book haha
good night everyone have sweet dreams!
PS: Good luck to everyone deciding on their pathways, may you guys find the best one possible? haha
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