{ Quiet Bday. }
10:31 PM • Thursday, July 27, 2006
 | You scored as White. White represents purity, calmness and innocense, and you fit all this. You are angelic to the core and would never dream of hurting anyone on purpose. The events of this world tend to shock you and you cannot wait to escape to a better place. You believe in the good of people. Your kind and loving nature makes you very hard to resist.
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hmm... haha do you think its true? I think so hoho =x Taken from Shiyun's blog.
About this year's Bday.
Some Comments.
Cassandra Anne Kumar, Gladys Tan Hwee Siang, Gerald Tan Yong Boon and Hafiz. Good never wish me at all.
Thanks Sarah for accompanying me today, if not I'll be sleeping the whole day away at home. Sigh do I always have to depend on her to accompany me? It seems like I'm such a loner with no friends at all. Ah what the fuk, my fault again, I shouldn't think about all this, I shouldn't blame people at all. (Even Sarah agrees that if she were me, she would feel a bit sad.)
I should have gone to work today. They would have celebrated for me. Together with the NSmen.
So can anyone tell me why have I become like this? Is it entirely my fault? If it is, I've nothing to say. If it isn't, go and do something about it. Don't regret only when you lose me.
{ And I'm Telling You. }
There's no way 11:59 PM • Monday, July 24, 2006
That I can possibly
Hear you say
I miss you terribly
Who am I
To think so much
Time goes by
It's hard to judge
Here we go again...
{ I don't know what title to put anymore }
Yes I do not know 11:53 PM • Friday, July 21, 2006
Not anymore
Do you wanna tell me
Before I get bored
Searching for the right
but it takes too long
Wanna see the light
Singing me a song
ok, I'm too tired to think of what to write =/ Guess I'll just leave it here.
Till then, ciaoooo.
PS: Fuk it. (God that person is cute and I'm attracted =()
{ Re: I Could Fall }
Nobody could hurt me 12:28 AM • Saturday, July 15, 2006
Like I know she could hurt me
But there's nothing in this world that I won't do
Nobody could take me
To the places that she takes me
Places that I never been before
With my eyes wide open
Knowing full well
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall, I could break
That's the chance that I take
I could fall
Look at me I'm flyin'
A breath away from dyin'
Holdin' on to her and lettin' go
As I walk across this wire
Above a lake of fire
And leanin' to the wind that starts to blow
With my eyes wide open
Knowing full well
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall, I could break
That's the chance that I take
I could fall
Do I hide my heart
Do I lock my door
Do I tear it out so it don't feel no more
No I risk it all
Knowing that
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall from heaven (fall from heaven)
I could fall
I could fall
I could fall
I could fall
Fall
Fall
Sinking ever deeper
Need to find my keeper
Give him my heart
And never part
I should really give up
Of course without a doubt
Why am I hanging on
When everything's long gone
Should I continue
or Should I not..
As I'm fading away into the Night room again...
This time round, once and for all.
{ Phil - Friend or Lover }
What am I better in 11:11 PM • Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Being a friend or a lover
If only I knew my answer
Sometimes I wish people would care for me more
Not that absolutely no one cares about me
But it's a different kinda care if you know what I mean
Back to the phase of listening to sad love songs again
Ah, the bitter sweet feeling of it all
I wouldn't mind if I were to listen to it 24/7 for the rest of my life
I can't really differentiate between Infatuation and Love now
What's happening to me
I don't wish to be obvious here
It's a public blog after all =/
I just... I dont know
The feeling, that same old feeling
If it was a fruit, lemon it would be
Sour. VERY VERY SOUR. Imagine that.
{ Am I that Noble? }
Noble enough, I must say 12:27 AM •
To appear that relaxed
But I can't imagine myself
Holding on to that facade too long
Why am I doing this
I ask myself
Maybe just because I'm TOO nice
I fall into infatuations TOO easily.
I could fall from heaven
I could fall, I could break
That's the chance I'd take
I could fall
Sigh guess I'll always be the one doing all this for other people
Don't see anyone doing the same to me like I do
Once again, I feel that my room is becoming darker, the point of light is diminishing
But what can I do
No one knows I'm trapped in this deep abyss
Dark and cold
I can only hang a smile on my face
Telling myself to look forward and go on
When will the time come when the smile just comes naturally
And as I think about all the possibilities, I slowly fade away into the Night Room. .
{ A Fool of Love? Perharps }
Just a while ago, I said something 11:03 PM • Monday, July 10, 2006
I found it interesting myself
"In the meantime, just sit back and relax, like you're watching a movie and when it comes to your favourite part, take the remote and pause it. Savour every moment of that part."
Heh didn't think that would come from me
I'm nice to everyone. Alright, ALMOST everyone
Especially when it comes to L.O.V.E
'Nice' is almost tripled
But I realised something
Most of the time it's one-sided
Not that I'm complaining
But it does affects me slightly
Cuz I get into infatuations easily
And that really sucks badly
Heh seems like I'm into my poetry medley again hoho
Maybe not tonight.
My thoughts are blurred
Like how I am,
I can't see clearly in my room
Just reaching out my hands in the dark for anything
It's obviously futile
But suddenly, I found myself staring at some point
That point is bright.
Hmm I wonder... could it be. . . ?
{ Goodbye - Natalie Imbruglia }
Every days the same 1:52 AM • Sunday, July 09, 2006
i feel them merge
i try to seperate
resist the urge
But they tell me i'll be fine
That it'll all get better
Just try to write it down
or put it in a letter
Still the words wont play,
And theres no easy way to say
Goodbye........Goodbye
Keep my head on straight
and dont look down
When all i've pushed away
i'm losing ground
But they tell me i'll be fine
that it'll all get better
Just try to write it down
or put it in a letter
Still the words wont play
and there no easy way to say
Goodbye........Goodbye
And from the sidelines watch me
fall down.......
I dont understand the things i do
but they tell me i;ll be fine
as long i keep moving
just try to write it down
till things just keep improving
Still the words wont play
and theres no easy way to say
Goodbye .............. goodbye
Terrific song from an awesome album. Natalie Imbruglia's Goodbye, taken from her No. 1 album 'Counting Down the Days'. She's such an underated singer/songwriter =/ I just don't understand why. I think she's amazing lo =D What Britney Spears crap, no wait they're not even in the same league to be compared with in the same place.
Let me continue with my rantings about my personal Night Room.
Let's try. I can't deny.
Someone. Always this vague silhouette.
But how can I see it in the Night Room?
When there's absolutely no light at all
It's always the mind. Can't leave it behind.
And when I thought everything would be over
It just bumps me off again
IT'S NOT EASY TO JUST FORGET EVERYTHING
I'm just useless.
"Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I've left unspoken"
Si seulement vous lisiez ceci, vous sauriez combien vous voulez dire à moi. Même jusqu'à maintenant.
Je ne peux le prendre plus, il suce la vie hors de moi.
{ In the Night Room III }
The footsteps that were once near my room are moving away slowly 10:59 PM • Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Maybe it was just my imagination
How could it be?
Once again, it's total darkness.
Thought I saw a hint of light
Almost too close to come true
BLERGH. Here I am waiting again
and I'm crying inside of me.
Let me see not one ray anymore
For I'll pin my hopes on it.
Too sad to be true. I cried silently.
{ In The Night Room II }
I'm still in the night room. 12:12 AM •
*imagines what's outside of it*
I hear footsteps shuffling to and fro
Trying hard to identify.
I cry silently like nothing has happened.
{ In The Night Room }
In the night room 11:10 PM • Monday, July 03, 2006
That's where I don't wanna be
Fear and misery loom
Upon the pathetic me
It hits me with a boom
As it claps with glee
There is only 'doom'
Which is visible to see
Temperature is low
And I'm freezing cold
Rays of light come and go
But none can help me so
Tell me what to do
Before it gets me too cool
Hope one true ray comes through
And save me from all these cruel
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