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{ Why do friends have to keep meeting up? (Sequel) }

11:48 PM • Thursday, August 05, 2010

I'm trying to put myself into the other person's shoes. The Sequel.

Oh God, why is he acting so immature? It's not like I forgot him as a friend. I am just busy with work that I barely have time for myself. Sigh. It is part of growing up. A meet up would be a bonus in the midst of a busy work schedule. I am speechless that it would affect him so much. It doesn't mean we aren't good friends anymore. We can still sms, msn, phone if we have time. Isn't it the same?

At this point, I really don't know how to continue. Maybe I've not really been through this before (there are times when I don't wanna meet the person so I just lied that I'm busy), but other than that, so far, I always wanna meet my friends whom I shared problems with and stuff. Even an hour would do. or worse come to worse. half an hour. Difficult? Yeah troublesome to travel just to meet for that amount of time. Real meaning? ---> then it doesnt seem like good friends anymore. A famous person once said: A good friend would pick up your call even if you called 4 am in the morning. Hmmmm maybe I can't do that myself cos I'd be sound asleep to hear anything.

But, that sentence is so powerful that it makes all my r/s with my good friends seem like we're just acquaintances.

{ Do friends need to have meet-ups? }

11:26 PM •

As one grows older, one would be busy with work till he/she doesn't have time to catch up with friends. In Jan, he/she meets up with friends, then 6 months hiatus, oh let's finally meet up in Aug. Hmm. Then in between? MSN, SMS. Wanna talk problems with friends? Phone, SMS, MSN. Hmm. Weird, where did that face-to-face, heart-to-heart talk go to? Culprit: Work. Not enough time. Hmm I'm thinking, maybe I'm too free. Or am I one of them too, that's why God is putting me through all this. It's not ok if we don't meet up, if there is, wow that's a bonus. Should it be this way? I can't seem to accept it yet. So does that mean I'm immature? That cos I'm only 23, I don't understand the work life of an adult. Well maybe. But all I know, time is for us to manage. It's the same as exercising. You're fat cos you make excuses not to put in time and effort to exercise. Same goes to meeting up with friends; same, no? I don't know, this is not really a post for me to blame or be pissed off or whatever. But rather, just trying to look at it from different angles. OR is there only one point of view: busy with own life = not meeting up with friends. Definition of friends to me: Friends you can connect with and share problems with and stuff. Jan, meet up, Aug, vomit out everything you've done for the past 6-7 months. Oh wow that's a lot of stuff, we should meet up again soon to update. Next meet up: 10 months later. And the cycle goes on. Hmmm I'm just puzzled and I'm definitely not ready to accept this yet. Be it when I'm working; cos I know, I'll make time out for my friends if they ask me out. Or do I not understand what's the real definition of a friend. So, a friend is all one ever needs for his whole life; wait, is there even such a person in fact, that you're close/ so close that you would always wanna meet up and share stuff. OHHH I FORGOT; that would be your partner in life already! So, there is NO FRIEND in fact that would meet up often. Not even friends you know for 10 years and counting. The only ever true friend I have in my life; The Lord above.

{ ='( ='( ='( ='( }

8:45 PM • Saturday, July 10, 2010

i feel like shit.

{ Let me BE the 1 }

10:25 PM • Friday, May 14, 2010

I wanna hold you so tight;
I wanna know what you're feeling baby.
I, You may not be perfect;
But I know we are together because we embrace each other's flaws.
I don't know what I'll do without you.

Imagine me without you.

{ Waves and waves }

11:43 PM • Wednesday, May 12, 2010

1.

Adrenaline rush. Ooo I love how it makes me shiver.
That's how I feel whenever I'm with you.
The touch and scent of your skin makes me fall even deeper.
Your voice is like the cure.
It soothes and heals me.

2.

Who does better in failures? The one who shows or the one who keeps?
But I would think the letters are M and E.
What about the facade?
Robots do get rusty if not oiled regularly.
The acapella sounds awesome no?
Yeah no.
I've lost the rhythm in me.

3.

Count the days when I could only see.
My eyes certainly don't come for free.
Give me light, give me hope.
But both I really can't cope.

{ The Devil In Me }

10:55 PM • Monday, May 10, 2010

Engulfing my soul without any qualms.
Slowly, slowly, slowly. Slowly, slowly, slowly.
POP! Goes the weasel. One day. yes One Day.

{ Who? }

9:16 PM •

Where does the problem lie?

{ 666/2 }

4:59 PM • Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Ents roam through the dark.

What becomes of the lark?

The death glory blooms at dawn.

What will be when I'm gone?

{ 666 }

4:46 PM •

The raven pecks my soul away bit by bit.
What use is a scarecrow?
The hyenas laugh in unison.
I'm on my rocking chair.

He tells me: Don't stop rocking.
.
..
...
....
.....

As the ravens swoop to peck at my soul again;

{ Back after a year's hiatus. }

11:19 PM • Monday, May 03, 2010

My dog's scratching itself.
My fan's at top speed right at my face.
My ipod's charging.
But, what am I trying to say here?

Sense of emptiness.

Oh wait, come again?
As I drift away into my Night Room.